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Friday, March 11, 2005

 

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Sunday, March 06, 2005

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wow, thanks for all your guys' comments .. it really made me feel a lot better. ;).

well, i was talking on the phone with lily yesterday morning and she said something that really made me think. "If our parents started off with barely anything in america, and they were able to pull through to provide for us, wouldn't we be better off than they are right now?"

we may not be the wealthiest family...

( and i'm talking about those people who think "oh, we only have one mercedez, and it's not even that good of a car." or "oh damn, i can't afford the coach bag." or "i go to hollister every weekend, but i'm not that rich." most people underestimate how much they do have. if you're one of those people who were able to take piano lessons, take dance classes, tour the world or even go to the movies every weekend, you're considered lucky to me. people like that just don't realize how much they had as a kid and it pisses me off. )

...but we do have, like chelle says, food on the table, clothes on our backs and a house to live in, which already puts us ahead of the billions of families who don't even have those three things. if our parents were able to provide us with not only food, clothes and shelter, but computers, television sets, dvd players, roller blades and whatnot, i'd say that's pretty damned good. to think that we would be able to do better than they did, what else can we ask for? they said that they want us to have better lives than they had .. but by us studying here in america and going to school, then college and getting a job later on, we've already fulfilled what they want.

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SATs are next week. damn.

i'm sick of being compared to every single mother fucking person alive. parents, aunts, uncles, grandparents, etc. all need to shut the fuck up. what grades i get, what college i go to, what i want to major in, what i want to work as, is my own business. i am my own pesron, and i will be who i want to be.

uncle jeffrey says that out of all his nephews and nieces, lily will be the only person who will succeed in life. you know what? everyone of us will do fine. so what if lily is an overachiever, i'm proud of her. she deserves the best because she really tries. i don't care if i don't get into berkley or stanford .. or even ucla. i know that i'm not capable of it .. i'm not the smartest person alive, nor am i the most athletic, but i will get into a college, which will be just as good for me.

parents, you say that you just want the best for me and blah blah, but if that's true, then why the hell are you expecting me to be the best of everyone my age in our damned family. i dont give a fuck if i'm not as smart as them, if i don't get into a better college than them, if i won't be as rich as them. as long as i'm wealthy enough to support my family in the future, i am perfectly content.

damn, i rant so much, i don't even know if any of it makes sense.

 


Sunday, February 27, 2005

sorry guys, this might take you a few days to read/load. o_O;; it's long.

saturday was an awesome experience!! even though i had to be at school by 650am. the whole scarfing wonton & 360lb hot chocolate conversation .. lol (inside joke). who ever knew wonton could be an adj?? sophia&tiffany forgot to bring their id cards = screwed. everything worked out ok at the end though. ;). listened to kroq all the way to western high .. i never knew knott's was so close to walnut. o_O;;

sappy speech part one: i met some new people & somewhat bonded with them. had many, many laughs. i love meeting new people. fun, fun, fun. ;D. it's awesome 'cause you can be yourself & nothing would matter 'cause no one would care. extra plus: memories. even for those people you've only talked to, laughed with, danced with once & never again, there'll always be those memories. but then again, that's just me, i remember everybody. ok, almost everybody. -_-;; totally forgot jen was in my geometry class. o_O;;

testing: was .. retarded. jacoby told us it would be a group thing, but when we got in for testing, they told us it was individual. -_-;; so basically, beson, jen & i were screwed 'cause we only studied our 1/4 part of the packet. o_O;; oli on the other hand, studied the whole thing. so basically, we all bsed it. surprising results soon to be revealed ..


oli&i right before her interview .. giving her a little pep talk (ok, not really) but that girl really needed to calm. lol.

lunch: saw a few hot white guys while standing in line for lunch. hahaha, jen's lover. 8D. (more on that later). first time i've eaten anything from togos, pretty yummy. ;). which reminds me, i had a lot of firsts today. after we ate, bunch of us gathered around & had a conversation with jacoby's kid, joshua (6 yrs old). he's SO funny & cute! he's freaking smart dude. he knew all these trivia questions that we didn't even know & he correctly answered some high-level (for a kindergartener) math & spelling questions .. nuts man. he's funny in a twisted kind of sense. he's really good at insulting & rolling his eyes & he seems cocky & he has very good speaking skills .. let's just say that if he were our age, we'd hate him. lol.


hahha, he's so little!!


group pic! evo, sophia, jen, me, & oli.

the awards ceremony: it took forever for it to start 'cause we had to wait for the judges to finish correcting our tests. in the meantime, we had a dance contest .. which was kind of weird because it didn't really work. people from all over just jumped on stage & stood there .. then jumped off stage .. did some thing in a line & then it was over. wtf. haha. i found it weird that they had a dj at this kind of thing. o_O;; had another dance game .. that didn't work either. -_-;; i was attempting to drag jen down with me, but she chickened out. so oli, sophia, lila, richard, lila's friend & i jumped off the bleachers and started dancing. only 15 secs into the song, they stopped it. we were like wtf!?!?! lila went up to the dj to request a song, but he wouldn't play it because "there are parents here, and we don't want any kids going crazy." made me mad. >;(. therefore i came to the conclusion of dj = no point. the people finally finished correcting & the ceremony started. almost everyone placed, so i was really proud of walnut.


the retard.


krystal&joanna


sophia's close up. lol.


sophia&oli


evo & 4th place business com plaque. congrats, hun! out of tenth, that's pretty good!


sophia & her public speaking plaque. don't know what she placed .. but GOOD JOB!!


this was actually taken on the bus while leaving knott's but i decided it was most appropriate in this section. jen, oli, me & benson got 5th place for parli pro, i was shocked!! how in the name of the lord did we place 5th when we bsed that test?? we didn't even think we would be placed. -_-;; CONGRATS GUYS!! next year .. we'll advance to state! >;D.

oli got 6th for FBL, congrats missy! see i TOLD YOU you would do good! 2 steps higher from last year & pretty soon, you'll be at state!

some smart dude named eliot lee got first for technology concepts. congrats! many other people got placed but i can't remember them all. =X.

and sweepstakes .. walnut got 3rd!! so proud!! we beat kennedy!! yayuh!! it was kind of obvious that troy&oxford would get first & second. -_-;; ahh .. screw them! (no offense troy ppl ^^;;)

sappy speech part two: i love the feeling of getting high with my fellow walnutters and screaming & cheering everyone on, even if i've never seen them before. the fact that we were just one school out of, who knows how many other schools, in the whole southern section of california ties us together even closer. i haven't felt that feeling for so long .. i'm just amazed how crazy i can get.

knott's: the ceremony took so long i was afraid we wouldn't have time to play! >.<;; got at knott's around 3 something pm. everyone split up so .. jen&i broke our promise w/ shrada that we'd ride supreme scream with her. =X. i wanted to go as a big group too!! oh, well.


jen, evo, & oli in line for our first ride, the silver bullet.


me, evo, & oli .. silver bullet was the "scariest" ride at knott's. so intense!! so funnn!!


haha, the picture speaks for itself.


the thing that oli&i each ordered .. yummmmm. took me forever to eat. -_-;; i had to take it in the store to eat while the others were shopping.


jen&evo's nacho basket. takes two to finish that. o_O;;

my first time at bumper cars!!


jen looks distorted. lol.


evo


oli .. we were supposed to attack benson, but he went elsewheres. -_-;;


ghahahahaha!! chaarrrrrrgggge!! >;).


guess who we ran into?? jacoby&joshua .. how adorable. ;).

i was craving icecream big time after the bumper cars. we ran around knott's looking for it, but couldn't find the one i wanted, so i resorted to dip 'n' dots. first time eating that too. ^^;; and then got some funnel cake .. my first funnel cake!! ( evo's carbonated apples, ahahhahha! )


me&evo in line for ghost rider.


jen&i with our drinks.


oli&i


me&jen being retarded.


oli&i .. i look disgusting. -_-;;


evo with the funnel cake .. she looks stoned. lol.


eyeing the funnel cake .. hahhaha


this is me when i'm high at the end of the day. you can just imagine how i looked when i first stepped into knott's. o_O;;


the everybody does this foot picture. guess who's foot is who's?


this was an incidental picture .. look really hard towards the back.


jen's lover!! lol. he "stalked" her the whole time we were at knott's. my comment to jen: it was fate. it took me a while to get a decent pic of him. why? he doesn't know that he's stalking jen. we ended up stalking him just so we could get a pic .. he must've been wondering why there were all these flashes of light everytime he passed by us. LOL. it's okay. jen broke up with him.


this is how she'd look like when she see's the pic i took of "something phillips"


the fobbiest picture known to man.


evo&i at the end of the day


dude, this girl has been on the phone the whole day! i don't have other pics to prove it, but i have witnesses!!


mines & evo's beautiful plaques.


random pic of evo on the bus. hmm .. i have a pic of her sleep-sitting at the bleachers .. but i won't post it up. i'll use it as blackmail! lol, jk. i would never do that. O;D.


the ring that oli bought.


jen bought these flashing magnetic earrings .. i wanted one but i felt guilty for spending money .. i'm so cheap. -_-;; can't really see the flashing in the pic. o_O;;

i wonder if anyone read up to this point. if so, props for you. lol. i feel like i just wrote an essay. o_O;; anywho, i had a great time on saturday. it was a really good experience .. a lot of first time things. i am definitely gonna go again next year! join fbla you guys, so you can accompany me!! lol. ;).

 


Monday, February 21, 2005

 

haha, have fun loading. ;D.

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the pics i promised you guys from the valentine's day dance:


can you say ghost?


before the dance, blurry, i know. -_-;;


group pic!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHELLE!! ;D. (even though it's technically tomorrow - feb.20 )

may all your hopes & dreams come true. i love you, hun. ;). see you tomorrow!

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pictures!! ;).


we ate at onami in the west cov mall


the birthday girl


chelle w/ her mum .. how cute. ;).


chelle with her 'rents.


me & the 'rents.


my yummy nummy green tea ice cream.


masterpiece #1


masterpiece #2


masterpiece #3 .. can you guess what was in that thing?? ;D.


went to the disney store .. chelle loves her eyore.


her eyore back at home .. ain't she so adorable?


me & my stitch. >;D.


;). the mickey hat .. except you can't really see him. -_-;;


stitch bubble machine!! how awesome is that?!


we took so many pics on the car ( decided to delete them .. if you wanna see all the pics, they're in my photobucket the pw is pictures. ) .. this is one of our normal ones. o_O;;


went over to swee's to pick up the pics ( i'd post them, but i have no scanner. ;(. ) .. look, its baby nathan! =D.

went back to chelle's house .. and unfortunately her parents were stuck in traffic & she didn't have the key to her house ..


so we just stood outside her front porch for like half an hour. her parents finally showed .. so we went inside .. and she tried on the presents i got her.


sexy! ;).


strawberry cake for frostee. yumm..


cutting the cake


*poke*


aren't we just lovely?


hahahaa, my "meestar fob" has been on her board for so long. o_O;;

FIN!

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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

 

i've lied to you the same way that i always do. this is the last smile that i'll fake for the sake of being with you. everything falls apart. even the people who never frown eventually break down. the sacrifice of hiding in a lie. everthing has to end. you'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind. the sacrifice is never knowing why i never walked away, why i played myself this way. now i see, you're testing me, pushes me away.

Linkin' Park - Pushing Me Away

 



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